This is the second post I'm writing about my present issues, and this is the non-self-pity one. I'm aiming for blunt right now.
In late April, bloodwork for a routine physical showed some anomalies. A bunch of weeks and diagnostic tests later, it seems I have Graves' disease (autoimmune hyperthydrosis). At the time, I found the news somewhat perturbing, but fundamentally, if you have to choose a chronic disease (not that you would), thyroid issues are a relatively good pick because they are relatively straight-forward to treat. I know that the symptoms can be hellish, but I was asymptomatic, so I can't speak to that. I can say I felt like absolute crap for a few weeks after starting treatment, and I actually took a couple of weeks off from lifting.
A month ago was the follow-up appointment for the Graves', and my endocrinologist tells me he suspects I have type I diabetes as well (this is the autoimmune never get better one, not the lose some weight one). That news I found somewhat tougher to deal with and, rather oddly, I fell into an ice cream bender and a phase of eating poorly. I know many people live full and healthy lives with type I diabetes. I know a few people who are examples of this. I also know that living those full and healthy lives means a lot of vigilance and discipline, and around the time of this appointment, I felt that I was already running on fumes in terms of discipline.
Throw in some work-related stress and stir.
Yesterday was another appointment with the endocrinologist. Type I diabetes diagnosis has been confirmed, but I'm still in the "honeymoon phase" wherein my body is using up the insulin it has left and I don't need to start supplementing yet. Typical honeymoon is 3 to 9 months, but longer is not uncommon. I want ice cream very badly, but I've also gained weight in the last month (although this could also be because of the treatment for the Graves').
I also seem to be aiming for a triumverate of autoimmune disease, and we'll see if my adrenal glands are joining in the party that my thyroid and pancreas have started.
The other day I was about ready to throw up my hands in disgust and give up on being healthy. Two weeks ago I missed a lifting session because I forgot my gym card, and then failed to make up the time elsewhere. Last week I missed all but one session because of more work-related stress, and odd gym hour reductions and closures. Then work got in the way of yet another session at the beginning of this week, and mid-week I was genuinely on the cusp of swapping out beer for a prime time annoyingly crowded gym session with all the undergrads who've just returned to the Uni. I did the lifting, though, and felt better for it, and I'm going to try to get to the gym this afternoon and make up the missed session tomorrow. I am also going to get disciplined with my eating again, and go to bed at a decent hour most nights instead of staying up late for no good reason.
I might, however, have a little ice cream tonight.